my name is shaik firdaus.
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Firdaus
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009 10:07 PM
If only i was given a chance to change my past
Its been hours since my heart was hurt. Hurt so deeply. Never once was I ever hurt this deeply but this is the first time. Its been days since I first fall for you. And now my hurt is hurt so deeply. The fact that I came to know about this morning really explained that there is no way or even any chance for us to be together. The minute I saw that fact that was about to ruin my life, I was in shock.
Since the first time I fall for you, I became a better person. A much better person. I did good things which seems impossible coming from me. I left my old life to step in the new life with you. My sleeping time was'nt proper. And even when I was sleeping, you were in my mind. Each day when I wake up you are the first person I think of. Everything is just about you. Most of the time in my mind I was thinking about our future. How we would go out and spend our time together. How we fight against every odds of breaking us up and How we make sacrifices to try to make our relationship last forever. All those dreams were shattered this morning. I came to know a fact that would never ever give me a chance to be with you. This is the first time I really understood what true love really mean. But i have to face the fact that we're not meant to be together.
Tears which roll down my eyes can't change this fact. I have to except what is fated. But not now. I am not strong enough. Please hurt me deep so I can forget you. But you will always be apart of me.For what I know, I am crazy right now.
"Tak pernah ku alami
Tak mungkin ku hindari
Di himpit perasaan
Bayangan Gurauan
Di dalam jaga ku tercari-cari
Di dalam tidur termimpi-mimpi
Jangan biarkan ku ternanti-nanti
Usah benarkan masa berlalu pergi
Andai di berikan emas permata
Ku pilih senyumanmu
Andai kupunyai mahligai indah
Ku hadiahkan untukmu
Dalam berjuta bintang berkelipan
Kau bagaikan kejora
Antara ribuan mata menikam
Takkan ku biarkan kau tenggelam"
I Love You Haz
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if only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect
love Firdaus
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