my name is shaik firdaus.
Firdaus

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shaik firdaus (:
18 years old, trying to fixed my life
wants to find new buddy to hang out with
 Dont Jugde me by how I look,
Judge me by how I behave towards you.
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008 8:25 PM
If only i was given a chance to change my past



Why was i born in this world? I am good for nothing. I can't do anything. I can't play sports well, hockey, floorball and even soccer. I am stupid. I can't score one digit for my o's. I am rude. I don't respect people. I am sickening. I've humiliate my family with my bad attitude. I made a sinful mistake and still doing it now. I have no friends.No one loves me & I am just useless. Why am i in this world? Why is there a need for me to live in this world? Since young, i did not have the brought up any other child had. I was never taught how to kick a ball. Like any other kids. I had to learn it myself. When i was in primary six i get myself to play sports. In my sec sch years, i was clearly the worst among all my friends. Till now. Its so humiliating. I've never been able to make my parents proud with my studies. I've never got A in my exams from primary school till now. I made my dad so ashamed with my bad behaviour in my sec school years. There is no one who loves me. No one who cares about me. I know to those reading these WILL say that this sound so girl. But i've suffered enough. I've went through pain that i never wanted too. I just can't take it anymore. Everyone has a point in life where they will just break down. So do i. What should i do now? I don't know. Who can i share my problems with? WHO? Who loves and care for me?? NO One. I have never and will never blamed my parents for what happen to me today. Its just me. I am useless!!!!!

if only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect
love Firdaus