Saturday, October 18, 2008 3:10 AM
If only i was given a chance to change my past

Yesterday i had such a wonderful day but today i had one of the worst day.
Its the first week of school. I've tried to sit and talk to diff group of ppl each day and only one thing came out of it. I need to start the conversation with everyone.I am ok with that but after a while i have bear the fact to hear my classmates speak in their language throughout the day which makes me feel so leftout. The only day i don't feel leftout is to start conversation with them. How in the world will it be possible for me to start conversation each time? I am feelind so damn down each time i go to school each day. I really want a request to change class if i can't take this anymore. I am not the type of person that is outcast. Never. I am always apart of something. It sucks so much. And if my classmates happen to read this let me just be honest to you guys. Its not that i hate you guys or I can't get along with you guys but certain things just don't work out well. Other than this, if there happen to be a class outing or what i will always not be in4m.So on the day itself when u guys ask me if i am going, Sometimes i will cover up and say that i am busy.It SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUKCS!!!!!I will be with them for another 2 years. i can't possibly go through this for the coming two years. I don't want to suffer. can anyone help me and tell me what should i do?? I will appreciate. Plz help me.

Other than that it sucks when some people who you regard more than friends who said message me anytime & i will be there. Just message me. But eventually you guys did'nt. If you can't keep to your promise. Don't keep it! Don't give false hope to people!